This update will be alittle different. As most of you know I was involved with a fuck load of drama lately.
Now first let me start off by saying I'm not a bad person. I'm a mean vindictive person but I'm not a bad person.
Anyway, so after this event I was a little pissed....okay I was REALLY pissed off. But I mean who wouldn't be. I just had a some of my friends and some ls members screw me over. I was pissed. I don't like being screwed over.
So, in my rage I ended up blaming the ls as a whole for the event and not just the ones who screwed me over. I had a lot of friends in that ls and some of them took offense to that. I didn't mean anything by it. But generally the ls leaders mean the ls as a whole. It's like if a member was all for cheating then it's just the member. But if it's a leader then the whole shell takes the hit.
I've given the event some time and I've cooled off a bit now. The other day I found out that the ls leaders tried to turn me against the ls. Slandering my name and making me look like the bad. Like I had some super plan to smash the ls into the ground. You know, cause I planed being sick, posting a thread while I was sick, then I lotted low on the YYR to make Soulstar feel guilty and ask the leaders about lotting, then making the thread on qcdn because I hated the ls and wanted them to go to pieces. Yes, that was my master plan.
Now this is what pisses me off, I'll admit I freaked out on qcdn but who wouldn't? What I thought were my friends hated me and admitted to wanting to screw me over. Not the ls as a whole but the main leaders.
So I read what's being said about me and I'm worried about the other members of this ls. If the leaders are willing to slander a member that fast then why stay in the ls? They keep going on about how I'm the bad guy for not forgiving them after 1 day and how I kept bashing the ls as whole. If they are willing to do that to a member who helped out so much then who knows how safe the other members are. And to say I can't be trusted because I swear and boast about new gear is just retarded. Just because I disagree with Alianne on some stuff and I can't be Pg13 I got screwed over.
Zer, remember when people took offense to my jokes about how women aren't people? You asked me to stop and I did. Well maybe if someone told me about my swearing I would have toned down. I didn't see anything wrong with it since a lot of people had fun.
I'm fine with them staying in the ls and being loyal to their leaders. Go you. But of people actually cared to find out about what happened instead of just following the leaders like sheep dogs this could have been settled fast and they wouldn't be bashing me on the ls site. Look at how fast they tried to slander me on qcdn by posting my SECRET ls rant.
I'm not saying I'm the good guy, I didn't help any by being so angry but I was and I can't take what I said back not that I really want to. I am still upset at the leaders for what they did but not the ls as a whole.
So, in the off chance that someone from the ls reads this I want to say I'm sorry for bashing the people who had no involvement in the event. I'm not sorry for being upset though at how fast you're all willing to be sheep dogs. Take 20 mins out of your day and read the thread. I had every right to be upset. Maybe if some of you could understand that we could do more events and stuff together.
Zer/Xean, I'm sorry you didn't give me a chance to fix this. You guys tried to bury it so fast you fucked up and ruined the rep of your ls. I hate having enemies and I hold no grudges to those that had no involvement. I wish you luck with the ls and hope that you don't get slandered like I did.
Goodbye TBH and good luck, I hope that one day you'll want to fix this. I know it's been a while and no one seems to give a shit anymore but this was bothering me and instead of posting in my thread I wrote this.
